Friday, March 30, 2007

29/03/07

it's officially my 1st night solo at coldside
if dun count Mon night's suddenly switch
and I was looking forward to it
cos I wanted to prove to myself that I can survive it
to be honest
it wasn't that busy to begin with
so a good opportunity to fine tune my skills
everyone was trying to help me out of goodwill
but I felt quite irritated
cos I wanted to do the job on my own
to taste the pressure
and learn to work fast
more orders came
I got into the rhythm
things were looking up
then was time to do closing
started off well
but then the orders started coming in again
so the work stockpiled
and I became a bit lost yet again
blur blur lidat
by the time I got thru all the orders
10pm liao
and only about half the closing done
a bit disappointed
and of cos frustrated
but endure
and stay positive
chiong lor
by 10.30pm
done liao
left count cake and keep cake
schenelle and lynette offered to help
but were refused
paiseh I didn't mean to be so fierce
wanted to finish the job on my own
so that I can gauge my timing
and finally
the job done!!!
so the time was agar 1045pm
way pass closing
but I finished the job
some sense of accomplishment
now I know the timing roughly
so next time can improve on my timing
swee la!!!

so he said @
6:25 PM

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

非你莫屬

so he said @
5:20 AM

我可以

作词：林唯/蔡旻佑　作曲：蔡旻佑　编曲：洪信杰

寄　没有地址的信
这样的情绪　有种距离你　放著谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情　能不能说给我听

雨　下得好安静
是不是你　偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景　有我爱你

我可以　陪你去看星星
不用再多说明　我就要和你在一起
我不想　又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽　是因为你

寄　没有地址的信
这样的情绪　有种距离 Ho-Oh Woo~ 你　放著谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情　能不能说给我听

雨　下得好安静
是不是你　偷偷在哭泣 Oh~
幸福它真的不容易
在你的背景　有我爱你

我可以　陪你去看星星
不用再多说明　我就要和你在一起
我不想　又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽　是因为你 Ho~ Woo

我可以　陪你去看星星
不用再多说明　我就要和你在一起
我不想　又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽　是因为你 Ho-Oh

so he said @
5:15 AM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Italian Time - Watch a funny movie here

so he said @
5:49 AM

faster than an F1 car!!!

just for laughs ^_^

so he said @
3:23 AM

Monday, March 26, 2007

painful...
I like the music though

this is a good clip

so he said @
4:15 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

anyone who sees this
can call me if interested in supper
going out to eat now
yes 12am sunday night

so he said @
11:50 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007

*yawn*
yes
I just woke up
not long ago
really concussed
after yesterday's nite out
and there I was thinking
wake up early go east coast jogging
kekeke...

update time...
first up
happily working at ny
everyday I'm there
I can practically call it my 2nd home
morning train coldside
at night work waitside
not wasting my time fretting over stupid ITP
earning much needed $$$
not for spending
but to pay for bike installment
lol
but nobody force me buy super 4 oso ma
such is life

work at coldside is enjoyable
slowly picking up the skills
trying to be as enthu as possible
the people training me are great
I have shrugged off the initial sluggishness and pessimism
prob due to my bad experience
I will not give up
if so many people can train and do coldside easily
why can't I rite?
the people training me are putting in effort to teach me
I must reciprocate
this opportunity didn't come by easily
so must cherish it n do my best

been very tempted to buy lotsa biking stuff lately
like gloves, fullface helmet, boots, riding jacket
and of coz mod my bike
but the moola count is low
n I really should save up
so for the time being
look at pics of nice bikes can liao la
u know
it's called 畫梅止渴

ITP
I hate to mention tis topic
guess it's a big fat zero for me
end of story
*shake head*

gonna start sch soon
last year coming up
gonna have to put in a monstrous effort
if I wanna get into university
gpa 3.3 at least
"hope I can do it" is not enough
must do it then can
actions speak louder than words

encouraged by a lot of things I see and the people around me
thanks for all the encouragement and advice
I have left my emo self behind
no more self pity
I feel I am lucky
very fortunate to have many things
that many people can only dream about
to be in good health
have $$ to spend
to have many wonderful friends
and a great family
have a roof over my head
to be able to do what I want
eat what I want without restriction
for that I am eternally thankful

sometimes
we really need to slow down and count our blessings
to realise we are fortunate

simple things that we often fail to do
tell your loved ones u love them
have dinner together with your family
sit down and talk over tv with dad
learn to cook from mum
appreciate what they do for you
take that 1st step
try it today
and see the magic it does...

so he said @
5:01 PM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

simple things always give the greatest joy
so true...so true

my first day at coldside...was fun
lyn was my shifu
and I learned to do closing
but I must have appeared pessimistic
probably affected by my past hotside experience
thank you for all the patience
I will try my best to pick up coldside skills
and enjoy myself in the process =)
jiayou!!!

so he said @
2:51 AM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

wasted another day
ok la
no work so sleep lor
woke up at 3 pm
groggily went to the toilet
then surf net
then sleep again
the next time I woke
8pm liao
omg
I really need to change my sleeping habits
always sleep at the wee hours of the morning
end up wake up late afternoon
aiyo

and I confess
I really feel damn lonely sometimes
like macham no friends lidat
although the are plenty of friends I can call out
but dunno leh
like dunno who to call lidat
nobody to go movie or dinner with
or simply just to hang out
maybe cos I call too late sometimes
and no one jios me out
this is really strange

so
end up I went to eat at coffeeshop and then off to marina south to play arcade
wah biang
sibeh no life
but at least I played mahjong game won 30 credits
song leh

and I so wanna bake a cake for the girl I love
ok the cake is easy
can learn 1
but no girl leh
haiz =(

another thing I've realised
in recent years
my birthday always quietly pass by
normally just a dinner treat by dad
that's it
I always enjoy celebrating others' birthday
buying present for them
but when it's my birthday like no one celebrate with me 1
hmm
why huh???
or must I be pro-active
organise something so that people can celebrate with me
hmm
gonna think of something...

so he said @
8:18 PM

Monday, March 12, 2007

I wanna ride to Malaysia
explore the N-S highway
in a big convoy
must find out more...
anyone???

I wanna go on a trip with friends
should be lotsa fun
but no kaki leh
aiyo why no one jio me???

so he said @
2:30 AM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

today work again
thought it was gonna be eventless
but
it wasn't

talked about wanting to go to coldside with lyn and schenelle
next thing I knew
Paul wanted to talk to me
and ask me what I wanted to tell him
cos schenelle and lynette talked to him about my concerns
and you know what
the way he put it
it was like
I couldn't speak up on my own
had to ask others to address my grievances to him
hey wtf
I can tell you on my own
no need people help me say can
lynette and schenelle
no offence if you read this
I thank you in fact for raising the issues

and paul
I dun wanna say la
tell me all the s***
what grievances should be open about it
speak up for myself
all the typical management crap talk
and I must start from hot side
start work from the tough hotside then go to the easier coldside
blah blah blah
die die insist I go hotside
if not case closed
you say until lidat
I got choice meh

hey
go to work must be happy right
if I dun like work hotside
still must force myself to like it in order to proceed to coldside
hell no way
what kind of stupid concept is that???!!!
aiya suah la
dun let me go coldside just say la
limbeh dun 'gian' oso
simply fucked up
just spoil my working mood for the whole shift
lucky uncle alan came
brightened up the place

and another issue I raised
why till now still $5/hr
oh the reply
erm I dunno what the previous group of managers did
but I will inform the other managers about this
and we will be observing you
then we can come to a decision

translation --->
we will be watching your ass
you better not slack
or screw up
if not
u want a raise
wait long long hor
well
I just work like normal la
observe all you want
lai la

when I said I din bother about the pay actually
paul again
"dun tell me you dun care about the pay..u do..if not u wun raise the issue..however little the raise it is still significant"
"but you tell me you work at nydc is not about the money I believe you
cos there are a lot of part timers in nydc who think just like you do"
"u do care about the pay rite so dun tell me you dun"

ok so there was a big fuss
end of the day
if so much unhappiness
then I stay waitside
get $5/hr la
cut all the fight for me bullshit
and my 'service ambassador' post
I think gone fark liao
where the name tag?
where the pay rise?
and who is gonna be in charge of this?
I guess no need say who liao
it is obvious

haiz
all the stupid red tape
politics
stressful lar
I dun care
all I enjoy is working with the people I love working with
so difficult meh???

so he said @
11:28 PM

10/03/07

I really enjoy working with uncle alan
my kind of person
more shifts with him pls
and no ****
you know who la

a stupid customer pissed me off at work
actually
everything was ok
until near to closing
this 4 people came in
2 guys 2 gals
ABC kind of people
very yaya
choose their seat at table 29
trying to act all cool and stylo
ok
I ignored them
and I was gonna do condiments anyway
so
I did my own stuff
when I was topping up the tobasco bottles
one of the guys walked up to me
and asked for the bill
so I told lynette to get their bill
then
the guy told me off
"fuck you mate,I ask for the bill and all you can do is sit down and do your stuff"
after that he stared at me and walked back to his seat shaking his head

ok
analysis

1. he said his gf waved at me and I saw her waving how could I have seen her wave when I am sitting at table 17 facing the entrance and concentrating on my task..huh?

2. there were 3 other staff covering the floor...why must she insist on waving at me? her stupid brain didn't realise she could approach the other 3 staff meh...

3. the stupid bf must act all fucked-up and come and kaopeh me without finding out the whole issue

4. they still got the cheek to ask hazel why I was so angry...ya I scold you for no reason you angry not...nabei

5. when they were leaving, the bloody bf still had the cheek to come over and ask me why I was so pissed...and when confronted totally denied spewing vulgarities at me...what a bastard...come on la..scold people dun dare admit in front of your frens issit..sickening...get out of my face asshole

6. wth...neber do anything oso kena screwed by customer...amazed + puzzled + resigned to fate

damn you eat awreddi laosai then you know...bloody ABC...snobbish SOAB!!!
sibeh dulan...
really suay and LL
haiz
thanks to everyone for comforting me
hongyan,hazel,lynette and uncle alan
made things so much better
thank you thank you

so he said @
11:00 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

I'm awake so early on a saturday morning
very rare
normally I have to drag myself out of bed
and the time I usually rise from my slumber
a staggering 3pm
omg
pretend you neber hear can

dunno y
just wanted to wake up
and surf net
LOL
and I've downloaded bleach 118 in like 10 mins
woah

working later
full shift
so looking forward
haha
good la work better than slack

yesterday went vivo city
shopping alone
sad right?
normal lah
walk here walk there
see this see that
end up neber buy anything
ok
I went like 8pm
and slowly see
so
by the time wanna buy anything
all the shops closed liao
*diao*
the scenery on the roof-top very nice
but enjoying it alone just sucks man
yes
it does

went to play pool with WR
then went to have nasi lemak at boon lay market
then
home sweet home
so tired
fell asleep very soon
it's a good feeling =)

so he said @
9:20 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007

The Greatest Ever Sports Car

1. Porsche 911
2. Mazda Miata MX5
3. Mcclaren F1
4. Jaguar E Type
5. Ferrari Enzo
6. Mercedes Goldwing SL
7. Aston Martin DB5
8. Corvette Stingray
9. Nissan Skyline
10. Lamborghini Countach

as seen on discovery channel
me wants a Porsche 911
yea!!!

so he said @
4:07 AM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

I believe
the one thing you can never lose in your life is hope
yes
hope
even if the whole world is against you
as long as you have hope
things will get better

so he said @
1:21 AM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

writing helps me destress
it really does
penning down my problems seems to lift them off my shoulders
hail the blog!!

dropped by nydc in the afternoon
only left thurs nite slot liao
fri no more
take la
work work work!!!
take my mind off the stupid attachment
and they're hiring yet again
oh soon will have new pple liao
something to anticipate
or rather
it's interesting to see who comes in

met Weirong in the evening at JP
finally watched ghost rider
like the cool burning skulley biker look
cool ^_^
the show not bad lar
3.5 out of 5 stars

then it's off to buy my bar chor mee
at bedok 85
very long neber eat liao
suddenly it tastes extra good
woo!!!
and the auntie remembers me
even my usual orders
still ask me why I so long neber go
touched!!!
actually
quite sad not to have someone to eat with me
always have to tabao go home eat
dun say liao
later sad again
hahahahahahaha

随缘吧

so he said @
2:19 AM

06/03/07

so screwed by itp
I'm totally disappointed at the school policy
thank you so much
'kill' your own people
you good
nvm...

hongyan...

人因梦想而伟大

good one......jiayou!!!

I realise
I've been very frustrated and unhappy these few weeks
even close to breakdown
I would really like to thank all those around me who stood by me
helped me get back on my feet
listened to my ramblings
went out with a half-crazy me
consoled and comforted me
and knocked some sense back into me

thank you thank you
without you guys
I would still be down and out
so whatever comes my way
I will endure
come on!!

so he said @
2:05 AM

Monday, March 05, 2007

a new skin for a new beginning
=)

thanks nick for all the encouragement and advice
thank you for being the buddy you are =))
you're the man!!!

so he said @
8:26 PM

04/03/07

I feel stressed
really really stressed
1 big load that I had a hard time putting down
then another hiccup comes along
dunno should laugh or cry
......

looking at myself
I start to think
what have I achieved till now
what have become of my childhood aspirations
all thwarted because of me falling victim to the education system

I remember...

I had always wanted to be a doctor
but LL didn't get to take biology in sec sch
so out the window

wanted to be an army officer
my A levels cannot make it
so OCS wouldn't take me

wanted to be a lawyer
A level results sucks plus english not up to standard
bang the wall

be an engineer
study poly liao will only be asst engineer
still have to top up to university degree
then can be qualified engineer
yet dunno can make it to university anot

in 1 way or another
all my dreams have been shattered
but I will push on
still have 1 thing
be a pilot
hopefully
this dream will be realised
must make it
show pple I can do it
I can be somebody
yes

so he said @
1:17 AM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

AT LAST!!!!!!

03/03/07

I'm very happy today
really really happy
in a long time

went to the guan yin temple today
to pray for good luck
things have been very rough for me lately
too many things to mention
I was really very low and wondering what the hell was happening to me
I went to pray with a sincere heart
I just wanted my confused mind to have some respite
after the 'bai bai'
I felt a big burden was lifted from my shoulders
I'm just very thankful
just glad all the bad luck and whatever nonsense is gotten rid of

I told myself
I must cheer up
for my own sake
and somehow I felt very excited to go back to work at nydc
last weekend ended on a sad note as I left halfway through my shift
due to flu
1st time ever since I started working at nydc
and on top of that
I was not my usual self
very listless and totally lost I was
but today
I was very happy to be at work
to see familiar faces
to do the work I love
and be in my comfort zone at the very least
probably due to my traumatic attachment experience
I enjoyed myself thoroughly at work
I smiled like I never smiled before
so full of enthusiasm
I think the other staff might have felt it
I cannot describe the joy I felt
really really shiok
and I got to meet the new mods for the first time
my comments
very very nice people
good to work with
this added to the joy that I was feeling
and sitting together with the staff after closing
chatting about so many things
was just sibeh shiok

ok
you might be wondering
what could trigger such an overwhelming response of joy
let me tell you
my bloody itp was a mess
the posting was to a company doing electrical works
well
a small company
and they were doing contract work
which meant deadlines had to be met
and I was attached to the foreman
a boar of a man
he didn't give a damn what you think
his sole mission was to get the job done
how the hell am I suppose to know how to lay the wires
which is the live wire
how to test for it
'pull' the wire from the distribution box
drill holes to secure conduit pipes
so much technical jargon
that I have not the faintest idea about
let alone the practical side
and these are real life clients
not play play masak masak
the job is totally beyond my understanding
and there is no step by step training
I have been on the job for only like 3 days
not 3 years leh uncle
how the fucking hell do you expect me to perform the tasks assigned
and the foreman keeps wondering when I give him a blur look
what do they teach you in poly??
you mean you don't know how to do these jobs
hello
this is poly
not ite
we study theory more than practical
and for goodness sake
what are the people in school doing
posting students to these companies??
I don't mind if I have previous experience
but no experience at all
and you want me to do 'high level' stuff
it's like asking a baby to drive a car
how to do
wtf
for god's sake
I might kill myself if I accidentally touch a live wire by mistake
or fall off the ladder while climbing to lay wires
yah
climbing those wobbly ladders they provide
or even get hit in the eye by a drill bit
while drilling a hole in the wall

sometimes
I wonder
why some people are so lucky
get all the easy attachment jobs
while I kena this back breaking shit job
just sibeh suay
I had enough
even if they fail me
I gonna pull out
no point enduring
sooner or later an accident will happen
not that it has not
within 3 days of work
I see my fellow attachment mate injuring his hand
even the chinaman who has 2 years of experience on the job injured himself too
such was the hazardous nature of the job
no more no more

hmm
suddenly an office job doesn't sound that bad after all
or maybe sales
or even a factory worker job sounds good
thanks but no thanks
no general worker carry things here and there job for me
pls
I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!!!!

so he said @
4:48 AM

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