it's officially my 1st night solo at coldside if dun count Mon night's suddenly switch and I was looking forward to it cos I wanted to prove to myself that I can survive it to be honest it wasn't that busy to begin with so a good opportunity to fine tune my skills everyone was trying to help me out of goodwill but I felt quite irritated cos I wanted to do the job on my own to taste the pressure and learn to work fast more orders came I got into the rhythm things were looking up then was time to do closing started off well but then the orders started coming in again so the work stockpiled and I became a bit lost yet again blur blur lidat by the time I got thru all the orders 10pm liao and only about half the closing done a bit disappointed and of cos frustrated but endure and stay positive chiong lor by 10.30pm done liao left count cake and keep cake schenelle and lynette offered to help but were refused paiseh I didn't mean to be so fierce wanted to finish the job on my own so that I can gauge my timing and finally the job done!!! so the time was agar 1045pm way pass closing but I finished the job some sense of accomplishment now I know the timing roughly so next time can improve on my timing swee la!!!
anyone who sees this can call me if interested in supper going out to eat now yes 12am sunday night
so he said @
11:50 PM
Friday, March 23, 2007
*yawn* yes I just woke up not long ago really concussed after yesterday's nite out and there I was thinking wake up early go east coast jogging kekeke...
update time... first up happily working at ny everyday I'm there I can practically call it my 2nd home morning train coldside at night work waitside not wasting my time fretting over stupid ITP earning much needed $$$ not for spending but to pay for bike installment lol but nobody force me buy super 4 oso ma such is life
work at coldside is enjoyable slowly picking up the skills trying to be as enthu as possible the people training me are great I have shrugged off the initial sluggishness and pessimism prob due to my bad experience I will not give up if so many people can train and do coldside easily why can't I rite? the people training me are putting in effort to teach me I must reciprocate this opportunity didn't come by easily so must cherish it n do my best
been very tempted to buy lotsa biking stuff lately like gloves, fullface helmet, boots, riding jacket and of coz mod my bike but the moola count is low n I really should save up so for the time being look at pics of nice bikes can liao la u know it's called 畫 梅 止 渴
ITP I hate to mention tis topic guess it's a big fat zero for me end of story *shake head*
gonna start sch soon last year coming up gonna have to put in a monstrous effort if I wanna get into university gpa 3.3 at least "hope I can do it" is not enough must do it then can actions speak louder than words
encouraged by a lot of things I see and the people around me thanks for all the encouragement and advice I have left my emo self behind no more self pity I feel I am lucky very fortunate to have many things that many people can only dream about to be in good health have $$ to spend to have many wonderful friends and a great family have a roof over my head to be able to do what I want eat what I want without restriction for that I am eternally thankful
sometimes we really need to slow down and count our blessings to realise we are fortunate
simple things that we often fail to do tell your loved ones u love them have dinner together with your family sit down and talk over tv with dad learn to cook from mum appreciate what they do for you take that 1st step try it today and see the magic it does...
so he said @
5:01 PM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
simple things always give the greatest joy so true...so true
my first day at coldside...was fun lyn was my shifu and I learned to do closing but I must have appeared pessimistic probably affected by my past hotside experience thank you for all the patience I will try my best to pick up coldside skills and enjoy myself in the process =) jiayou!!!
so he said @
2:51 AM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
wasted another day ok la no work so sleep lor woke up at 3 pm groggily went to the toilet then surf net then sleep again the next time I woke 8pm liao omg I really need to change my sleeping habits always sleep at the wee hours of the morning end up wake up late afternoon aiyo
and I confess I really feel damn lonely sometimes like macham no friends lidat although the are plenty of friends I can call out but dunno leh like dunno who to call lidat nobody to go movie or dinner with or simply just to hang out maybe cos I call too late sometimes and no one jios me out this is really strange
so end up I went to eat at coffeeshop and then off to marina south to play arcade wah biang sibeh no life but at least I played mahjong game won 30 credits song leh
and I so wanna bake a cake for the girl I love ok the cake is easy can learn 1 but no girl leh haiz =(
another thing I've realised in recent years my birthday always quietly pass by normally just a dinner treat by dad that's it I always enjoy celebrating others' birthday buying present for them but when it's my birthday like no one celebrate with me 1 hmm why huh??? or must I be pro-active organise something so that people can celebrate with me hmm gonna think of something...
so he said @
8:18 PM
Monday, March 12, 2007
I wanna ride to Malaysia explore the N-S highway in a big convoy must find out more... anyone???
I wanna go on a trip with friends should be lotsa fun but no kaki leh aiyo why no one jio me???
so he said @
2:30 AM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
today work again thought it was gonna be eventless but it wasn't
talked about wanting to go to coldside with lyn and schenelle next thing I knew Paul wanted to talk to me and ask me what I wanted to tell him cos schenelle and lynette talked to him about my concerns and you know what the way he put it it was like I couldn't speak up on my own had to ask others to address my grievances to him hey wtf I can tell you on my own no need people help me say can lynette and schenelle no offence if you read this I thank you in fact for raising the issues
and paul I dun wanna say la tell me all the s*** what grievances should be open about it speak up for myself all the typical management crap talk and I must start from hot side start work from the tough hotside then go to the easier coldside blah blah blah die die insist I go hotside if not case closed you say until lidat I got choice meh
hey go to work must be happy right if I dun like work hotside still must force myself to like it in order to proceed to coldside hell no way what kind of stupid concept is that???!!! aiya suah la dun let me go coldside just say la limbeh dun 'gian' oso simply fucked up just spoil my working mood for the whole shift lucky uncle alan came brightened up the place
and another issue I raised why till now still $5/hr oh the reply erm I dunno what the previous group of managers did but I will inform the other managers about this and we will be observing you then we can come to a decision
translation ---> we will be watching your ass you better not slack or screw up if not u want a raise wait long long hor well I just work like normal la observe all you want lai la
when I said I din bother about the pay actually paul again "dun tell me you dun care about the pay..u do..if not u wun raise the issue..however little the raise it is still significant" "but you tell me you work at nydc is not about the money I believe you cos there are a lot of part timers in nydc who think just like you do" "u do care about the pay rite so dun tell me you dun"
ok so there was a big fuss end of the day if so much unhappiness then I stay waitside get $5/hr la cut all the fight for me bullshit and my 'service ambassador' post I think gone fark liao where the name tag? where the pay rise? and who is gonna be in charge of this? I guess no need say who liao it is obvious
haiz all the stupid red tape politics stressful lar I dun care all I enjoy is working with the people I love working with so difficult meh???
so he said @
11:28 PM
10/03/07
I really enjoy working with uncle alan my kind of person more shifts with him pls and no **** you know who la
a stupid customer pissed me off at work actually everything was ok until near to closing this 4 people came in 2 guys 2 gals ABC kind of people very yaya choose their seat at table 29 trying to act all cool and stylo ok I ignored them and I was gonna do condiments anyway so I did my own stuff when I was topping up the tobasco bottles one of the guys walked up to me and asked for the bill so I told lynette to get their bill then the guy told me off "fuck you mate,I ask for the bill and all you can do is sit down and do your stuff" after that he stared at me and walked back to his seat shaking his head
ok analysis
1. he said his gf waved at me and I saw her waving how could I have seen her wave when I am sitting at table 17 facing the entrance and concentrating on my task..huh?
2. there were 3 other staff covering the floor...why must she insist on waving at me? her stupid brain didn't realise she could approach the other 3 staff meh...
3. the stupid bf must act all fucked-up and come and kaopeh me without finding out the whole issue
4. they still got the cheek to ask hazel why I was so angry...ya I scold you for no reason you angry not...nabei
5. when they were leaving, the bloody bf still had the cheek to come over and ask me why I was so pissed...and when confronted totally denied spewing vulgarities at me...what a bastard...come on la..scold people dun dare admit in front of your frens issit..sickening...get out of my face asshole
6. wth...neber do anything oso kena screwed by customer...amazed + puzzled + resigned to fate
damn you eat awreddi laosai then you know...bloody ABC...snobbish SOAB!!! sibeh dulan... really suay and LL haiz thanks to everyone for comforting me hongyan,hazel,lynette and uncle alan made things so much better thank you thank you
so he said @
11:00 PM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
I'm awake so early on a saturday morning very rare normally I have to drag myself out of bed and the time I usually rise from my slumber a staggering 3pm omg pretend you neber hear can
dunno y just wanted to wake up and surf net LOL and I've downloaded bleach 118 in like 10 mins woah
working later full shift so looking forward haha good la work better than slack
yesterday went vivo city shopping alone sad right? normal lah walk here walk there see this see that end up neber buy anything ok I went like 8pm and slowly see so by the time wanna buy anything all the shops closed liao *diao* the scenery on the roof-top very nice but enjoying it alone just sucks man yes it does
went to play pool with WR then went to have nasi lemak at boon lay market then home sweet home so tired fell asleep very soon it's a good feeling =)
so he said @
9:20 AM
Friday, March 09, 2007
The Greatest Ever Sports Car
1. Porsche 911 2. Mazda Miata MX5 3. Mcclaren F1 4. Jaguar E Type 5. Ferrari Enzo 6. Mercedes Goldwing SL 7. Aston Martin DB5 8. Corvette Stingray 9. Nissan Skyline 10. Lamborghini Countach
as seen on discovery channel me wants a Porsche 911 yea!!!
so he said @
4:07 AM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
I believe the one thing you can never lose in your life is hope yes hope even if the whole world is against you as long as you have hope things will get better
so he said @
1:21 AM
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
writing helps me destress it really does penning down my problems seems to lift them off my shoulders hail the blog!!
dropped by nydc in the afternoon only left thurs nite slot liao fri no more take la work work work!!! take my mind off the stupid attachment and they're hiring yet again oh soon will have new pple liao something to anticipate or rather it's interesting to see who comes in
met Weirong in the evening at JP finally watched ghost rider like the cool burning skulley biker look cool ^_^ the show not bad lar 3.5 out of 5 stars
then it's off to buy my bar chor mee at bedok 85 very long neber eat liao suddenly it tastes extra good woo!!! and the auntie remembers me even my usual orders still ask me why I so long neber go touched!!! actually quite sad not to have someone to eat with me always have to tabao go home eat dun say liao later sad again hahahahahahaha
随 缘 吧
so he said @
2:19 AM
06/03/07
so screwed by itp I'm totally disappointed at the school policy thank you so much 'kill' your own people you good nvm...
hongyan...
人因梦想而伟大
good one......jiayou!!!
I realise I've been very frustrated and unhappy these few weeks even close to breakdown I would really like to thank all those around me who stood by me helped me get back on my feet listened to my ramblings went out with a half-crazy me consoled and comforted me and knocked some sense back into me
thank you thank you without you guys I would still be down and out so whatever comes my way I will endure come on!!
so he said @
2:05 AM
Monday, March 05, 2007
a new skin for a new beginning =)
thanks nick for all the encouragement and advice thank you for being the buddy you are =)) you're the man!!!
so he said @
8:26 PM
04/03/07
I feel stressed really really stressed 1 big load that I had a hard time putting down then another hiccup comes along dunno should laugh or cry ......
looking at myself I start to think what have I achieved till now what have become of my childhood aspirations all thwarted because of me falling victim to the education system
I remember...
I had always wanted to be a doctor but LL didn't get to take biology in sec sch so out the window
wanted to be an army officer my A levels cannot make it so OCS wouldn't take me
wanted to be a lawyer A level results sucks plus english not up to standard bang the wall
be an engineer study poly liao will only be asst engineer still have to top up to university degree then can be qualified engineer yet dunno can make it to university anot
in 1 way or another all my dreams have been shattered but I will push on still have 1 thing be a pilot hopefully this dream will be realised must make it show pple I can do it I can be somebody yes
so he said @
1:17 AM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
AT LAST!!!!!!
03/03/07
I'm very happy today really really happy in a long time
went to the guan yin temple today to pray for good luck things have been very rough for me lately too many things to mention I was really very low and wondering what the hell was happening to me I went to pray with a sincere heart I just wanted my confused mind to have some respite after the 'bai bai' I felt a big burden was lifted from my shoulders I'm just very thankful just glad all the bad luck and whatever nonsense is gotten rid of
I told myself I must cheer up for my own sake and somehow I felt very excited to go back to work at nydc last weekend ended on a sad note as I left halfway through my shift due to flu 1st time ever since I started working at nydc and on top of that I was not my usual self very listless and totally lost I was but today I was very happy to be at work to see familiar faces to do the work I love and be in my comfort zone at the very least probably due to my traumatic attachment experience I enjoyed myself thoroughly at work I smiled like I never smiled before so full of enthusiasm I think the other staff might have felt it I cannot describe the joy I felt really really shiok and I got to meet the new mods for the first time my comments very very nice people good to work with this added to the joy that I was feeling and sitting together with the staff after closing chatting about so many things was just sibeh shiok
ok you might be wondering what could trigger such an overwhelming response of joy let me tell you my bloody itp was a mess the posting was to a company doing electrical works well a small company and they were doing contract work which meant deadlines had to be met and I was attached to the foreman a boar of a man he didn't give a damn what you think his sole mission was to get the job done how the hell am I suppose to know how to lay the wires which is the live wire how to test for it 'pull' the wire from the distribution box drill holes to secure conduit pipes so much technical jargon that I have not the faintest idea about let alone the practical side and these are real life clients not play play masak masak the job is totally beyond my understanding and there is no step by step training I have been on the job for only like 3 days not 3 years leh uncle how the fucking hell do you expect me to perform the tasks assigned and the foreman keeps wondering when I give him a blur look what do they teach you in poly?? you mean you don't know how to do these jobs hello this is poly not ite we study theory more than practical and for goodness sake what are the people in school doing posting students to these companies?? I don't mind if I have previous experience but no experience at all and you want me to do 'high level' stuff it's like asking a baby to drive a car how to do wtf for god's sake I might kill myself if I accidentally touch a live wire by mistake or fall off the ladder while climbing to lay wires yah climbing those wobbly ladders they provide or even get hit in the eye by a drill bit while drilling a hole in the wall
sometimes I wonder why some people are so lucky get all the easy attachment jobs while I kena this back breaking shit job just sibeh suay I had enough even if they fail me I gonna pull out no point enduring sooner or later an accident will happen not that it has not within 3 days of work I see my fellow attachment mate injuring his hand even the chinaman who has 2 years of experience on the job injured himself too such was the hazardous nature of the job no more no more
hmm suddenly an office job doesn't sound that bad after all or maybe sales or even a factory worker job sounds good thanks but no thanks no general worker carry things here and there job for me pls I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!!!!
People call me Roy
17/05/82
27 and counting
happy-go-lucky...mostly
loves lame jokes
eating is a joy
hownowbrowncow_moomoo@
hotmail.com (msn/fb)
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BELIEVES
When one door closes another opens.But often we look so long so regretfully upon the closed door that we fail to see the one that has opened for us.
LOVES
--> playing pool
--> playing mahjong
--> riding my super 4
--> Manchester United
--> listening to my favourite songs
--> EG6
--> WRX
--> fighter jets
--> high performance cars and bikes
--> german shepherds
--> golden retrievers
--> siamese cats
--> steamed fresh prawns
--> bak chor mee
--> boneless chicken rice
--> sashimi
--> fish soup
--> lame jokes aka 'leng siao huar"
Baby cried the day the circus came to town
'cause she didn't want parades just passin' by her
So she painted on a smile and took up with some clown
While she danced without a net upon the wire
I know a lot about 'er 'cause, you see
Baby is an awful lot like me
Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside, learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all
Baby saw that when they pulled that big top down
They left behind her dreams among the litter
That different kind of love she thought she'd found
There was nothin' left but sawdust and some glitter
But baby can't be broken 'cause you see
She had the finest teacher-that was me-I told 'er
Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all
Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost made it
Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all
