Sunday, March 04, 2007
AT LAST!!!!!!
03/03/07
I'm very happy today
really really happy
in a long time
went to the guan yin temple today
to pray for good luck
things have been very rough for me lately
too many things to mention
I was really very low and wondering what the hell was happening to me
I went to pray with a sincere heart
I just wanted my confused mind to have some respite
after the 'bai bai'
I felt a big burden was lifted from my shoulders
I'm just very thankful
just glad all the bad luck and whatever nonsense is gotten rid of
I told myself
I must cheer up
for my own sake
and somehow I felt very excited to go back to work at nydc
last weekend ended on a sad note as I left halfway through my shift
due to flu
1st time ever since I started working at nydc
and on top of that
I was not my usual self
very listless and totally lost I was
but today
I was very happy to be at work
to see familiar faces
to do the work I love
and be in my comfort zone at the very least
probably due to my traumatic attachment experience
I enjoyed myself thoroughly at work
I smiled like I never smiled before
so full of enthusiasm
I think the other staff might have felt it
I cannot describe the joy I felt
really really shiok
and I got to meet the new mods for the first time
my comments
very very nice people
good to work with
this added to the joy that I was feeling
and sitting together with the staff after closing
chatting about so many things
was just sibeh shiok
ok
you might be wondering
what could trigger such an overwhelming response of joy
let me tell you
my bloody itp was a mess
the posting was to a company doing electrical works
well
a small company
and they were doing contract work
which meant deadlines had to be met
and I was attached to the foreman
a boar of a man
he didn't give a damn what you think
his sole mission was to get the job done
how the hell am I suppose to know how to lay the wires
which is the live wire
how to test for it
'pull' the wire from the distribution box
drill holes to secure conduit pipes
so much technical jargon
that I have not the faintest idea about
let alone the practical side
and these are real life clients
not play play masak masak
the job is totally beyond my understanding
and there is no step by step training
I have been on the job for only like 3 days
not 3 years leh uncle
how the fucking hell do you expect me to perform the tasks assigned
and the foreman keeps wondering when I give him a blur look
what do they teach you in poly??
you mean you don't know how to do these jobs
hello
this is poly
not ite
we study theory more than practical
and for goodness sake
what are the people in school doing
posting students to these companies??
I don't mind if I have previous experience
but no experience at all
and you want me to do 'high level' stuff
it's like asking a baby to drive a car
how to do
wtf
for god's sake
I might kill myself if I accidentally touch a live wire by mistake
or fall off the ladder while climbing to lay wires
yah
climbing those wobbly ladders they provide
or even get hit in the eye by a drill bit
while drilling a hole in the wall
sometimes
I wonder
why some people are so lucky
get all the easy attachment jobs
while I kena this back breaking shit job
just sibeh suay
I had enough
even if they fail me
I gonna pull out
no point enduring
sooner or later an accident will happen
not that it has not
within 3 days of work
I see my fellow attachment mate injuring his hand
even the chinaman who has 2 years of experience on the job injured himself too
such was the hazardous nature of the job
no more no more
hmm
suddenly an office job doesn't sound that bad after all
or maybe sales
or even a factory worker job sounds good
thanks but no thanks
no general worker carry things here and there job for me
pls
I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!!!!
so he said @
4:48 AM
