Sunday, June 17, 2007
long time since I've been awake so early on a Sunday morning
a good time to pen my thoughts
had a bad sore throat last night
the kind of going-to-sore-throat-can-feel-it-but-haven-erupt-yet-kind
was hoping to sleep it off
so slept super early
like 11 o'clock
too many late nights in a row liao I guess
lucky this morning better
life has been pretty rocky lately
to say the least
things are not going my way
work has been awkward and brought me much unhappiness
and my attempts to pick myself up have not been really very successful
yet life carries on
I try hard to laugh at myself
to see from the point of others
to feel for them
to understand
to forgive
but this can be tiring
and seriously
sometimes people just can't be bothered about what I think anyway
no amount of talking with friends
or blogging
or drinking
can solve my problems and make people understand how I really feel
I've grown weary of all this
I think my friends are tired of hearing me talk about the same stuff too
over and over again
so I guess keeping quiet about it
not whining and bothering people about my stuff
and doing some quiet reflection on my own helps more
exams are coming up in a big hurry
for the moment
all other stuff have to be shelved
I shall use the exams as a motivation
work hard for it
expend all my energy on my books
as for the rest
it's beyond me
let's just let nature run its course
hopefully in my favour...
so he said @
9:55 AM
