Wednesday, April 02, 2008
stuck at home with nothing to do...almost
I'm stuck at home
nobody jio me out...forgotten liao
with nothing to do
ok
it's more of a lot of things to do but lazy to move
so blog lor since my literary juices are flowing
heheheheh
staying at home makes me think a lot
糊 思 乱 想 more like it
in the recent weeks I have been mindlessly working at sentosa
930am-9pm
the only serious thinking that I do is what to have for lunch
love it dread it hate it
ain't nuthin' like it
attachment mah so what can I say
$2.08/hr
wah biang almost MFLG
suddenly nydc $5.50/hr seems like a godsend O.o
of course comparing to my previous attachment company 5 mins down the road from home
it's way way better
no thanks to climbing up n down friggin flimsy ladders doing wiring work that can potentially fry me to a crisp (if the ladder doesn't kill me 1st)
and kena tekan carry a lorry load of stores up n down 5 storeys 2-3 times a day
when only a small screwdriver is needed
sai gang >.<
damn it!!!
taking a quiet moment to reflect
I realise I feeling quite 'constipated' recently
a cacophony of emotions
feeling uneasy over my university application
my dreams and goals
my graduation
my yet-to-clear ippt
my finances
and many many other things
if my university application 'chui'
I'll be damn sad
that's for sure
who to blame...should kick myself for not chionging from the start
now have to live with the what-ifs
my dream of flying
came crashing down all too soon
not that I'm giving up or anything
it's just that the flesh is willing but the $$ is weak
70k is not a small sum
had heated exchanges with my dad
was told to 'fly kite lah'
'think you very great issit'
'who is gonna lend you 70k just lidat wake up lah'
'u think easy ar boy'
'why must you insist on flying'
all I could do was keep quiet and endure the scolding
I don't feel bitter
I can understand my Dad's concerns
I was disappointed that I shared my dreams and got bombarded instead of getting support and understanding
bo bian 1 step at a time lor
I will find a way eventually
graduation is coming soon
though I don't feel particularly excited
perhaps it's the stupid ITP that's dampening my spirits
causing all the cock-ups
moving on to a new school can be both uplifting as well as saddening at the same time
I guess going to university 5 yrs later than expected is lingering in the back of my mind
still can't get over my A level 'buang' no matter how hard I try
the issue has brought me much pain and anguish
turned my life around and made me think hard about what I want to do with my life
and now even that university place is uncertain
you tell me lah where got mood =(
IPPT woes
actually it's a small issue
I believe I can clear it
somemore now I'm Cat Y
just that with the deadline approaching it's unnerving
last minute lah haizzz
gotta book a date within this month
chop chop clear 1 less burden
$$$
just can't get enough
my $2.08/hr pay is not helping much
want to work at nydc but timing clash
bike installment need to pay
petrol need to pump
go out need $$
tahan tahan tahan
attachment quickly end can pleasssseee
haha I'm not gonna be paiseh lar
if any gal want me
just come lah
I'm right here waiting
just to state clearly
dun expect 'wu zhun' standard hor
not tall
not dark
not handsome
not rich
just happy as can be
come get me
*I want to vomit liao -_-'''*
so he said @
2:56 PM
