Monday, June 30, 2008
shocked sia
I'm very shocked...
STILL IS
that my manager was axed today
no chance given
even given 1 month's wages in exchange for immediate termination of contract
how very damn bloody harsh!!!
she worked for nydc for 10 years
yet was fired because one of the upper management didn't like her
actually he was aiming her liao
just waiting for the right opportunity to 'chop' her
come on man
没 有 功 劳 也 有 苦 劳 吧
I think she has done more for nydc than possibly some of the higher management have
all the shit she kenna from customers
coming back when problems arise even though its her off day
guiding the new managers when they just came in
INGRATEFUL BASTARDS _!_
how unfair
how unjust
unfortunately thats how the real world works
TMD!!!
so he said @
11:11 PM
Sunday, June 29, 2008
it's good to be back to civilian life
yippee =)
so he said @
4:14 PM
Sunday, June 22, 2008
a few hours to go before in camp training
SIAN!!!
so he said @
11:59 PM
Saturday, June 21, 2008
the most amazing comeback by turkey
euro they got chance to win liao
POWER!!!
so he said @
11:59 PM
Friday, June 20, 2008
lidat oso can
hmm
apparently my blog looks messed up in IE
but appears in perfect alignment on Mozilla
so pple
use Mozilla to view my blog
yeah!!
so he said @
2:00 AM
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
hey I'm back
suddenly feel like blogging
so here I am
very disturbed by the deaths of the 2 SAF servicemen
both the REC and the OCT
especially Clifton
cause I've been a faithful reader of many blogs
his gf used to work at nydc so I happen to read her blog
it's a pity
promising young man
bright future ahead
his gf must be heart-broken
can't even begin to imagine her pain n loss
God bless
RIP Clifton
and all the SAF personnel out there
please take care of yourselves
everything has come to a brief standstill for the moment
no special signs of anything happening in my life
crossing my fingers
I hope I'll be pleasantly surprised
alright
time for work
catcha later!!
so he said @
4:30 PM
Thursday, June 05, 2008
THANK YOU DAD!!!
I'm thankful for my dad
humble and hardworking
humorous and always optimistic
my pillar of strength
who is always by my side
providing reassurance when I'm lost
helping me up when I fall
guiding me every step of the way
providing for all my needs
waking up early to wake me for school
buying food for me rain or shine
always encouraging me
believing in me
never giving up on me
telling me to ignore what others say or think of me
just do what I have to do and enjoy myself in the process
I am forever grateful and in his debt
THANK YOU DAD!!!
THANK YOU FOR THE SPIRIT-LIFTING TALK!!!
I'M MIGHT FEEL DOWN BUT I WOULDN'T GIVE UP =)
THE DARK CLOUD WILL SOON PASS AND BRIGHT SUNSHINE WILL POUR THROUGH ONCE AGAIN ^_^
so he said @
11:58 PM
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
some purpose in my life please!!!
had a great day at work
being amongst familiar faces really took much of my anxiety away
thank you to all the peeps especially shen n fiona who tried in one way or another to cheer me up
thank you for caring
I remember fiona saying that she was gonna blog about what I told her today
my past experiences
how I kena sabo by the singapore education system and suffered
how my dreams were smashed to bits 1 by 1
it saddened her
I shall talk about how I'm feeling now
frankly
I'm quite sad
depressed
scared as well
cos to me
I seem to have nothing to look forward to
well,in terms of university education
the university education that I've been yearning for since 2000
my gpa isn't fantastic
kena rejected by ntu n nus
no private engineering degree in sight for me to take up
all seems pretty bleak
people keep telling me
why you so sad?
the most re-apply next year lah
so uptight for what...quit whining la
you know what all these events reminded me of
it brought back terrible memories of the day I got my A level results
the period of time right after I ord-ed when I was so depressed I almost lost it
I'm damn afraid
damn afraid I'll buang again
I CAN'T AFFORD TO BUANG AGAIN
HOW MANY MORE YEARS CAN I WAIT?
because of the bloody uni applications
I can't sleep properly
eat properly
my emotions are erratic
I'm feeling so negative
too late to say anything about my poly studies
what's done is done
I wouldn't say my results are crap
all I can ask for is a chance
tough luck that this year happens to be the dragon babies poly batch
LL
life just sucks
I seriously dunno how am I gonna lift myself up again
I admire fiona and jocelyn
they can take rejection in their stride
they remain positive and happy
they are much braver than me
it's true I guess
maybe I can't afford to lose any more
the more battles you lose
the more timid you become......
so he said @
11:23 PM
Monday, June 02, 2008
don't worry be happy
I'm staying at home
feeling miserable and lousy
thinking and worrying about many things
I really hate this feeling
the last time I felt like this was when I ORD-ed from army
and didn't know what to do next
I miss my poly life
don't have to think
just go to school everyday
got test study for test
got exam mug for exam
do projects with friends
chill out in school
now that poly's over
I was hoping to move on to university
ntu to be precise
yet that was not to be
I admit I'm afraid of failure
I've failed before and I know that dreadful feeling
now I feel so helpless
all I can do is wait for the appeal
and even that doesn't look very hopeful
yeah I know it's not the end of the world
there are still many things I can do
yet the same anxiety that gripped me before I entered poly has resurfaced
I'm damn scared
really terrified
can't explain this negative emotion
I try to tell myself
I need to clean up my act
quit the worrying cos some things are beyond me
have faith and hope that things work my way
bounce back Roy bounce back!!!!!!
but it ain't easy
it really isn't......
so he said @
11:18 PM
Sunday, June 01, 2008
trying to stay positive
trying to be optimistic
it's never easy
so he said @
11:48 PM
I've graduated
happy that my course is completed
sad that my future seems so vague
lost
lost
lost
argh!!!
so he said @
1:44 AM
